Confessions

The vibration in my lap from the text messages seemed to have intensified as if my iPhone had taken direct orders from him to nullify my already erect hormones. I read the message which directed me to the nearest exit that would lead me to Largo rd., Route 202 right off the interstate. Luckily, having just dropped off Vanessa at my moms house in Largo to retrieve her car, I was able to stall for time to ponder the decision of what would be my next move. You would think having a 3ct, flawless, princess cut diamond ring on my left finger would be a no-brainer to take my ass home to the man that awaits me. However, a simple "girls night out" turned into a game of cat and mouse over shots of Patron. As a result, there was something more intriguing on my mind and for whatever reason I was seeking to satisfy at least some of my curiosity.

I scrolled through the text messages that I had traded throughout the night with this new found "curiosity" before finally deciding to put the car in drive and making my way to my next destination. I made a left on Campus Way, pulled into the Exxon gas station, and backed my car into the parking space beside the already parked, black tinted-out Escalade. I took a deep breath, got out of my car and attempted to pull down the bottom of the tiny black satin dress over my 42-inch protruding hips. With a 26-inch waistline leading up to hips like that it was difficult NOT to notice that something, rather someone, was doing this body good. I slid into the passenger seat where I was greeted with a hug and kiss placed gently on my forehead. The soft caress of his lips against my skin was almost enough to make me melt right there, but I pulled away in an attempt to maintain some control.

We briefly conversed about our last encounter of innocence which occurred prior to the state-side return of what soon became my fiance. That same innocence soon perished as he grabbed me by the back of my neck and kissed me passionately. At that very moment any quarrel between right and wrong that had resounded in my mind immediately subsided as I embraced his lips with mine. I could feel his fingers running gently across my upper thigh as his hand made its way up my dress. He continued to move his hand up slowly until he was met by the warm moisture which ran in between my thighs. He abruptly pulled his hand from under my dress and backed away with a stunning expression. Dazed and confused by his sudden retreat, I watched him open his door, hop out of the truck and walk around to my side of the vehicle. He opened up the passenger side door and in one swift motion he grabbed me by my thighs and pulled me towards him. The forceful slide across the leather seat sent my dress up around my waist immediately exposing my "Victoria's secret-LESS" lower posterior.

With his left hand he pulled my left leg over his shoulder as he forced my upper body back against the console with his right. There was no reaction time for any resistance as I inhaled deeply at the feeling of his mouth against my ______. My _____began to pulsate with every stroke of his tongue fondling my cl__ upon every motion. At 4am, getting caught was the last thing that was on my mind as I closed my eyes and relaxed my neck allowing my long flowing hair to fall on my back. That of course was until the glare of headlights broke me out of my trance when a car came creeping slowly into the gas station. I opened my eyes and couldn't believe what I saw. "SHYT!!"
...to be continued


-Lusty

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"Single Ladies"

If someone were to ask me what would be my biggest fear in life first nature would default to saying God, but after extensive thought I would have to say the fear of having a daughter who didn’t understand her self-worth. It’s one thing to know, which means to be aware, but to fully interpret and grasp the idea is to actually understand. I look at the multitude of females around me who often claim to know their self-worth but their actions within their romantic relationships reveal that they don’t particularly understand. We are often molded into the idea that having a Boyfriend/husband is a sign of “completion” or “stability” but isn’t this a sense of false hope? Having a man surely doesn’t validate you as a woman and certainly gives you no more integrity than the next nor does it make you anymore superior than those that do not, so where is the completion? It makes no matter of sense yet the reality still remains that women, more often than not, devote more time to finding “that man” who they believe validates them as a woman. Don’t get me wrong being in love with someone is a wonderful thing. However, being in love with someone doesn’t make you any more beautiful, any smarter, or any more considerable than the next. Love is inside out and in order to give true love you have to learn to love yourself first and learning to love yourself is being comfortable with just that...YOURSELF! Having the ability to stand up for yourself and demanding the same effort and respect that you exude is the true understanding of self-worth which should reflect through your actions. Life is great…live it, love it, and laugh throughout it!

-Lusty